2005-06-27 - 12:04 a.m.
i'm back like an ex stopping by to pick up a watch left behind. not quite sure what the point is...perhaps to justify one's leaving in the first place. regardless, i don't feel as restrained any more. in fact, coming back to the comforts of familiar territory affords one with the ability to approach the same old from a completely different angle -- or that is at least what it feels like. but i do feel sheltered here, not too many people know about this space so i can really just write for myself and move on. it is only with certain people in my life that i can truly get through some anonymous barrier to be lucid. i feel too much restraint with others when i feel like i have someone's intellect coming down upon me like some unwanted tidal wave. it leaves me feeling so emptied and quietly disturbed. i tend to have my conversational air on, one that keeps me limited in social restraints and allows one to glaze over organic meanderings through conversational development to just keep things, neutral with strangers. minds are sexy beasts...enigmatic in their control, but incredibly worth relishing once you come to understand them and have room to move about freely.
